So I'm only doing about 2-3k a day, which is low for me. It's about a chapter for Gears, and I'm about 10k in and he's almost to where he'll stay the rest of the book. So I'm excited for that, but I have a feeling if I don't pick it up when the end of the month comes around I'll have to scramble to reach my goal.
Steelgods is very nearly pure fantasy, with only a touch of steampunk thrown in for good measure. Gears makes a big transition to steampunk, one that I'm already in. Thinking of silly steam cities is one of my favorite things. Like a wall that has massive steam trains riding around it, weaving through a city on aquaduct-like passages. Or blimps, or little robot helpers (which were in Steelgods). Basically odd stuff like that. I honestly haven't had fun devising weird things in a world (since Effulgent Corruption was 'omg srs') so it's been a goofy treat.
Plus I love steampunk, and nearly all my books (save WGMD and EC) have had steampunk elements in them, so it's almost like returning to form.
Now I'm going to post a self-indulging section: RETRO VIDEO GAMES.
I love retro video games (and indie video games, but that can be another topic). Growing up my friend had an NES and I remember long hours trying to beat Zelda, or Mario, or trying to land the plane in stupid Top Gun (we never did). On my cousin's houseboat we'd play Ninja Turtles and Rad Racer, sucking pretty bad at them both.
I never had any game systems until I went to college; my parents wouldn't let me. I discovered emulators in High School and that's when I finally got around to playing SNES, N64, and PS1 games. It wouldn't be until after my mormon mission that I got a PS2, and the rest is history.
Anyway, in an attempt to salvage my believed "ruined" childhood, I'm snatching up as many game systems as I have. Two of them (the SNES and NES) were actually gifts. We bought an N64 and Gamecube (which isn't really retro but...whatever) and have been stockpiling games for these systems ever since.
How many games? Well, I'm going to list off my collection for you, because I care and you probably don't.
NES
Super Glove Ball (yes, we have a power glove. No, I will never use that piece of crap)
The Ultimate Stuntman
3-D World Runner
Bionic Commando
Castlevania
Castlevania 2 - Simon's Quest
Castlevania 3 - Dracula's Curse
Base Wars
Blaster Master
Batman
Dragon Warrior
Double Dragon II
Excitebike
Joust
Legendary Wings
Lifeforce
Duck Tales (whoo, hoo!)
Megaman 2
Marble Madness
Paperboy
Rad Racer
Super Mario Bros/Duck Hunt (and a gun that doesn't work on our tv)
Super Mario Bros 2
Super Mario Bros 3
Tetris
Zelda
Kirby's Adventure
SNES
Wario's Woods
Tetris and Dr. Mario
Final Fantasy II (IV)
Final Fantasy III (VI)
Super Mario Kart
Zelda: A Link to the Past
Super Mario RPG
Super Metroid
Chrono Trigger
Super Mario Allstars + World
Tetris Attack
Final Fantasy Mystic Quest
Nintendo 64
Dr. Mario 64
Starfox 64
Donkey Kong 64
Super Mario 64
Paper Mario
Perfect Dark
Blast Corps
Pokemon Puzzle League
Super Smash Bros
Banjo-Kazooie
Banjo-Tooie
Mario Kat 64
Diddy Kong Racing
Jet Force Gemeni
Zelda 64 - Ocarina of Time
Zelda - Majora's Mask
How's that for having a not-mid life crisis? I still have a decent amount of games I don't have but want for the collection (Zelda 2: Link's Adventure, more Mega Man's, Kid Icarus, Secret of Mana, Konker's Bad Fur Day) but for now I'm reasonably content. NES games are the worst for me. They usually are only like $3 and I just KNOW I remember playing that game and it being awesome. Then I take it home and it's usually...not as awesome.
So I love video games, big surprise. Now you know you want to come hang out and play some old Nintendo with me. Hey, I'm always up for it.
How I managed to write books (or do anything productive for that matter) with all this crap in my house is beyond me.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have Castlevania 2 to beat.
Also, har har
on Monday, August 1, 2011
I just now realized that it's August. When I wrote Steelgods, I wrote it in September to do a whole cute "Steelgods September" thing. And it wasn't until right now when I posted something on twitter that I realized this would work:
"ANBAR AUGUST."
HOLY CRAP HOW DID THIS WORK SO WELL.
I'M DISCOVERY WRITING MY OWN LIFE.
"ANBAR AUGUST."
HOLY CRAP HOW DID THIS WORK SO WELL.
I'M DISCOVERY WRITING MY OWN LIFE.
The Gears of Anbar - And so it begins
After a short respite, I have started on Gears of Anbar. I must say, even only taking a break from writing for a little past a week, I was already beginning to feel like something was missing from my life. I felt like I wasn't accomplishing anything, even when I was massively editing Effulgent Corruption and having just finished a book longer than my past three combined.
I suppose this is a sign I should be a writer, hmm? If even one day passes and I haven't written I begin to feel off. I'll take that as a good thing.
To my amazing surprise I actually wrote 3.4k today. It's mostly dialogue, which is both for the reader's benefit (having just started a new book in the series) and my own. Gears is a darker book than Steelgods. While in the first Cevan's plight was certainly bleak, it was done in a way that it came off as less serious than it actually was. Not so in Gears, which takes place a year after the first one. Cevan's situation has gotten far worse, with both Gears and Peacemakers (or Peacemasters, based on the snippet at the end of the Kindle version of Paradise Seekers) hunting him voraciously. While this book will certainly have the humor of the first book, it's going to be a bit darker. I'm trying to get into that mood, and this chapter reflects that.
It also is going to be longer. I'm trying my hardest to write YA not Epic Wordy Fantasy here, and I don't know how well I'm doing. I guess we'll find out soon enough.
This will also be, like Steelgods, a big fat discovery write. Effulgent Corruption, while I found things out along the way, was a massive example of me planning and piecing everything together. Seriously, that book is complicated, but I made sure nothing was there "just because" or as a result of leftover discovery writing: everything had a place, even little things. Gears is more me having a basic idea of a story and seeing how I get there and what happens (which is also what happened in Steelgods). It's mostly a fun write for me because it's both easy (I don't have to worry much about it being good) and hard (I want it to be good, deep down, and going purely off discovery writing is a challenge). I also don't worry about it and just plow through as fast as humanly possible (I want this book done by the end of August), and since it isn't 353k I know it'll be done quick.
I'm also being less of a whiner about Kindle, and I'm reconsidering putting Steelgods up, probably for free. I will first attempt to sell this thing the "original style" (aka query letters, wee.), but if it fails I see no harm in putting it up. It also would give me a chance to redeem myself for the formatting monstrosity that was Paradise Seekers (though, Joe, I think I might have sent you a bad copy or something), and since I'm less attached to this story (I really wanted to sell Paradise Seekers, so the fact nobody bit still sort of irks me) putting it up won't be such a personal dilemma. Plus, I think it's a fun ride, and having more books up on the Kindle store certainly couldn't hurt.
Speaking of Paradise Seekers, Amazon won't make it free even though I harass them about how it's free on Smashwords. I'm just going to keep spamming them until they figure it out, I guess. I honestly have no problem giving it away, minus the whole "perception of value" thing. I love the book, but I also want more people to read it. Truthfully, that means more to me than the money. I do this because I love telling stories and I love the craft. Would I love to make a living off it? Absolutely. Do I know if Kindle is going to do that for me? Maybe, but for now I'm skeptical, and in that regard I'd rather take pleasure in simply knowing more people are reading it rather than trying to pay off my cover art.
Which is really the whole thing. I don't want to downplay myself, but I wrote Paradise Seekers in less than a month. Honestly, the most frustrating work wasn't writing it or even editing it, it was the stupid task of formatting it. I love writing, I love editing, but a month's work isn't hard to just hand out. And as I mentioned at the start, I write to fill a void in myself. Maybe that gives me a warped perception of value, but if this is something I churned out fast and published myself, I see no problem with you reading it for free. Honestly, reading reviews that praise it (or even just review it) actually mean more to me than earning the 35 cents or whatever they threw down to buy a copy. You read something I wrote and actually finished it, and even went so far to say you liked it. That's praise enough.
Not to go far off a tangent, but that's also how I felt when I used to make indie games. I actually made quite a few back in the day, and never made one red cent off it. But it didn't matter. I had fun doing it, I had fun listening to feedback, and that was enough.
That being said, after spending seven months writing Effulgent Corruption (and probably seven more before the dumb thing is its "final" state), there is no way I'm giving that away for free (unless you want to alpha read, hint hint). In the perception of value thing, this monster is up there. Paradise Seekers, Steelgods, and even Harbinger were more for my own enjoyment, but Effulgent Corruption was a massive amount of sleepless nights, long walks to clear my mind, and stress. So yeah, if you thought I didn't value my work, here's the counter argument.
And holy balls did I get off on a tangent.
The point is, maybe I'm jaded because Paradise Seekers didn't sell. Maybe I'm jaded because my online group (most of which came from that indie community) didn't do jack crap to support me when I needed them most. I'm over it. I'm going to keep writing some damn entertaining books, and I'm going to keep letting you read them. That's it, end of story, QED, ~fin, whatever. I can get rejected by traditional publishing and by Kindle publishing, but I don't give two freaking craps. I'm going to keep flooding you with my mind vomit until you've had enough, and then I'll keep going.
I half expected corny, dramatic music to play when I was typing that. Imagine it narrated by Tom Hanks, that's who I'd have read that scene.
Anyway. Gears is go, I'm still writing, and that's that.
Before the quote, here's a "Personal news moment!" (because you haven't gotten in my head enough this post)
- My crown chipped. After a minor war, I convinced my dentist he should replace it for free. Thank goodness, now I can finally sleep at night.
- I won a Soundgarden Rock Band pack, valued at $10. Go me.
- I also won the grand prize in another Rock Band online thing, that netted me $20 in xbox bux and about $60 in indie games off Steam. Yes, I'm really lucky.
So I'm actually in a pretty good mood, despite this post. Anyway, here's some stuff I wrote today from the new, emo Steelgods book.
I suppose this is a sign I should be a writer, hmm? If even one day passes and I haven't written I begin to feel off. I'll take that as a good thing.
To my amazing surprise I actually wrote 3.4k today. It's mostly dialogue, which is both for the reader's benefit (having just started a new book in the series) and my own. Gears is a darker book than Steelgods. While in the first Cevan's plight was certainly bleak, it was done in a way that it came off as less serious than it actually was. Not so in Gears, which takes place a year after the first one. Cevan's situation has gotten far worse, with both Gears and Peacemakers (or Peacemasters, based on the snippet at the end of the Kindle version of Paradise Seekers) hunting him voraciously. While this book will certainly have the humor of the first book, it's going to be a bit darker. I'm trying to get into that mood, and this chapter reflects that.
It also is going to be longer. I'm trying my hardest to write YA not Epic Wordy Fantasy here, and I don't know how well I'm doing. I guess we'll find out soon enough.
This will also be, like Steelgods, a big fat discovery write. Effulgent Corruption, while I found things out along the way, was a massive example of me planning and piecing everything together. Seriously, that book is complicated, but I made sure nothing was there "just because" or as a result of leftover discovery writing: everything had a place, even little things. Gears is more me having a basic idea of a story and seeing how I get there and what happens (which is also what happened in Steelgods). It's mostly a fun write for me because it's both easy (I don't have to worry much about it being good) and hard (I want it to be good, deep down, and going purely off discovery writing is a challenge). I also don't worry about it and just plow through as fast as humanly possible (I want this book done by the end of August), and since it isn't 353k I know it'll be done quick.
I'm also being less of a whiner about Kindle, and I'm reconsidering putting Steelgods up, probably for free. I will first attempt to sell this thing the "original style" (aka query letters, wee.), but if it fails I see no harm in putting it up. It also would give me a chance to redeem myself for the formatting monstrosity that was Paradise Seekers (though, Joe, I think I might have sent you a bad copy or something), and since I'm less attached to this story (I really wanted to sell Paradise Seekers, so the fact nobody bit still sort of irks me) putting it up won't be such a personal dilemma. Plus, I think it's a fun ride, and having more books up on the Kindle store certainly couldn't hurt.
Speaking of Paradise Seekers, Amazon won't make it free even though I harass them about how it's free on Smashwords. I'm just going to keep spamming them until they figure it out, I guess. I honestly have no problem giving it away, minus the whole "perception of value" thing. I love the book, but I also want more people to read it. Truthfully, that means more to me than the money. I do this because I love telling stories and I love the craft. Would I love to make a living off it? Absolutely. Do I know if Kindle is going to do that for me? Maybe, but for now I'm skeptical, and in that regard I'd rather take pleasure in simply knowing more people are reading it rather than trying to pay off my cover art.
Which is really the whole thing. I don't want to downplay myself, but I wrote Paradise Seekers in less than a month. Honestly, the most frustrating work wasn't writing it or even editing it, it was the stupid task of formatting it. I love writing, I love editing, but a month's work isn't hard to just hand out. And as I mentioned at the start, I write to fill a void in myself. Maybe that gives me a warped perception of value, but if this is something I churned out fast and published myself, I see no problem with you reading it for free. Honestly, reading reviews that praise it (or even just review it) actually mean more to me than earning the 35 cents or whatever they threw down to buy a copy. You read something I wrote and actually finished it, and even went so far to say you liked it. That's praise enough.
Not to go far off a tangent, but that's also how I felt when I used to make indie games. I actually made quite a few back in the day, and never made one red cent off it. But it didn't matter. I had fun doing it, I had fun listening to feedback, and that was enough.
That being said, after spending seven months writing Effulgent Corruption (and probably seven more before the dumb thing is its "final" state), there is no way I'm giving that away for free (unless you want to alpha read, hint hint). In the perception of value thing, this monster is up there. Paradise Seekers, Steelgods, and even Harbinger were more for my own enjoyment, but Effulgent Corruption was a massive amount of sleepless nights, long walks to clear my mind, and stress. So yeah, if you thought I didn't value my work, here's the counter argument.
And holy balls did I get off on a tangent.
The point is, maybe I'm jaded because Paradise Seekers didn't sell. Maybe I'm jaded because my online group (most of which came from that indie community) didn't do jack crap to support me when I needed them most. I'm over it. I'm going to keep writing some damn entertaining books, and I'm going to keep letting you read them. That's it, end of story, QED, ~fin, whatever. I can get rejected by traditional publishing and by Kindle publishing, but I don't give two freaking craps. I'm going to keep flooding you with my mind vomit until you've had enough, and then I'll keep going.
I half expected corny, dramatic music to play when I was typing that. Imagine it narrated by Tom Hanks, that's who I'd have read that scene.
Anyway. Gears is go, I'm still writing, and that's that.
Before the quote, here's a "Personal news moment!" (because you haven't gotten in my head enough this post)
- My crown chipped. After a minor war, I convinced my dentist he should replace it for free. Thank goodness, now I can finally sleep at night.
- I won a Soundgarden Rock Band pack, valued at $10. Go me.
- I also won the grand prize in another Rock Band online thing, that netted me $20 in xbox bux and about $60 in indie games off Steam. Yes, I'm really lucky.
So I'm actually in a pretty good mood, despite this post. Anyway, here's some stuff I wrote today from the new, emo Steelgods book.
The Garbage Wagon seemed the least of our worries, what with the whole town burning. “We can’t stay,” I said, carefully rubbing my temples with my palms, making sure the Tips didn’t touch my flesh. “The Peacemakers-“
“Are undoubtedly on their way; yes,” Devent grumbled. “Quick, to the forest. They send their scouts first, but I’m certain a towering plume of town-sized fire should be signal enough for the whole Peacemaker armada to come for our blood.”
“Not your blood,” I bit my lip. “Mine.”
Devent was quiet, and he gave me an odd look. Rosemary looked at me with sympathy and a touch of sadness, but I could see in her eyes she wasn’t going to argue my point.
They came because they think I’m the Destroyer of the World, my headache left, and in my mind I could easily see the fires ravaging what remained of the lovely town of Red Graphite. They kill and murder and ruin everything, all because of me. And they’ll never stop, never, until I’m dead.
- The Gears of Anbar
Oh, and here's where the "Steelgods" word was inspired from. Yes, I get a lot of ideas from music ("Paradise Seeker" is a line from Escapist, by Nightwish). Sue me.
Oh, and here's where the "Steelgods" word was inspired from. Yes, I get a lot of ideas from music ("Paradise Seeker" is a line from Escapist, by Nightwish). Sue me.
Effulgent Corruption is edited, setting it down for now.
on Friday, July 29, 2011
I did a quick breeze-through of the final two parts, mostly doing spelling and obvious grammar problems, and I'm calling this good. Minus submitting to writing group (where the comments will be noted but not yet implemented), I'm not messing too much with Effulgent Corruption until after WorldCON at least.
There are still a few things left to do that I might tinker with. Before each chapter is a cute little quote about a specific god (one per part), but I got sick of writing them around part 3 so after that it just says "insert quote here." I wanted them to actually tie with in the current story but did an awful job at it (it was supposed to also be a cheap way to provide back story without too much expository dialogue during the actual book), so they haven't been done. That's going to require me writing them all completely separate from the actual book in attempt to make it so they don't suck, but we'll see. For now, I'm leaving them as "insert quote here." Deal with it.
Re-reading it I already have specific ideas for things that might actually require substantial edits. In terms of plot development, I'm fairly content with Drake's and Ciara's parts, minus minor tweaks. Rook's takes a significant turn in his second bit (Part 6) which I don't feel is foreshadowed enough before. Also his engagements with Grax are entertaining but also border on repetitive; cutting a hefty chunk of them will help the pacing. By the end of the novel I've better solidified their relationship to what I want, but it is a tad shaky early on. That's probably going to be the biggest edit (minus, of course, what alpha readers contribute) and I'm not exactly looking forward to it.
All that aside, ALPHA READERS. If you really want to read a 350k rough draft, I am more than willing to send it to you. It'll be a major "no details required" review, where I really only want a specific plot critique and ideas on what scenes do and don't work. No line edits, nothing too major. Just read through it and give me a hefty review. I honestly probably only need a couple of these, so if you are a voracious reader and don't mind reading something dark and depressing, let me know. I can provide any format, including Kindle or ePub.
Speaking of Kindle, I hesitate to talk about Paradise Seekers. My constant internet harassment of bloggers and forums has slowed as I tried to finish Effulgent Corruption, and as a turn the sales have gone from "mediocre" to "awful." I'm now considering making it free and saying "eff it" to Kindle publishing for now, but we'll see. It's also a tad harrowing to realize people you've known online for 10+ years (of which I have a plethora) won't throw down $1 to buy something to support you, or to help promote you. Those who have supported me: I really really appreciate it, and by no means wish to sound ungrateful. You are awesome and I wish you all the success you can get.
The point of this is that I did epublishing to "test the waters," and so far haven't been very impressed. Perhaps if I put more out on there it would help, but most people chuck short stories up there, and I can't write a good short story worth beans. I'm going to resume (or rather, return to my normal goals) pursuing traditional publishing means for now, but should things change I'll reconsider epublishing. Point being, you aren't going to see Steelgods 1 on there anytime soon. Sorry.
Speaking of Steelgods, since Effulgent Corruption is no longer wasting my time, I'm going to haul through Gears of Anbar now because I can (warmdown writing). I haven't fully decided on my next project following that, but we'll see what happens.
In the tradition of posting youtube videos, here's something Chuck threw in my direction. Yes, I still love Game of Thrones. No, I haven't gotten around to finishing the book yet. Derp.
There are still a few things left to do that I might tinker with. Before each chapter is a cute little quote about a specific god (one per part), but I got sick of writing them around part 3 so after that it just says "insert quote here." I wanted them to actually tie with in the current story but did an awful job at it (it was supposed to also be a cheap way to provide back story without too much expository dialogue during the actual book), so they haven't been done. That's going to require me writing them all completely separate from the actual book in attempt to make it so they don't suck, but we'll see. For now, I'm leaving them as "insert quote here." Deal with it.
Re-reading it I already have specific ideas for things that might actually require substantial edits. In terms of plot development, I'm fairly content with Drake's and Ciara's parts, minus minor tweaks. Rook's takes a significant turn in his second bit (Part 6) which I don't feel is foreshadowed enough before. Also his engagements with Grax are entertaining but also border on repetitive; cutting a hefty chunk of them will help the pacing. By the end of the novel I've better solidified their relationship to what I want, but it is a tad shaky early on. That's probably going to be the biggest edit (minus, of course, what alpha readers contribute) and I'm not exactly looking forward to it.
All that aside, ALPHA READERS. If you really want to read a 350k rough draft, I am more than willing to send it to you. It'll be a major "no details required" review, where I really only want a specific plot critique and ideas on what scenes do and don't work. No line edits, nothing too major. Just read through it and give me a hefty review. I honestly probably only need a couple of these, so if you are a voracious reader and don't mind reading something dark and depressing, let me know. I can provide any format, including Kindle or ePub.
Speaking of Kindle, I hesitate to talk about Paradise Seekers. My constant internet harassment of bloggers and forums has slowed as I tried to finish Effulgent Corruption, and as a turn the sales have gone from "mediocre" to "awful." I'm now considering making it free and saying "eff it" to Kindle publishing for now, but we'll see. It's also a tad harrowing to realize people you've known online for 10+ years (of which I have a plethora) won't throw down $1 to buy something to support you, or to help promote you. Those who have supported me: I really really appreciate it, and by no means wish to sound ungrateful. You are awesome and I wish you all the success you can get.
The point of this is that I did epublishing to "test the waters," and so far haven't been very impressed. Perhaps if I put more out on there it would help, but most people chuck short stories up there, and I can't write a good short story worth beans. I'm going to resume (or rather, return to my normal goals) pursuing traditional publishing means for now, but should things change I'll reconsider epublishing. Point being, you aren't going to see Steelgods 1 on there anytime soon. Sorry.
Speaking of Steelgods, since Effulgent Corruption is no longer wasting my time, I'm going to haul through Gears of Anbar now because I can (warmdown writing). I haven't fully decided on my next project following that, but we'll see what happens.
In the tradition of posting youtube videos, here's something Chuck threw in my direction. Yes, I still love Game of Thrones. No, I haven't gotten around to finishing the book yet. Derp.
Effulgent Corruption - Almost done editing
on Thursday, July 28, 2011
I've been picking up the pace after Part 3...the Parts after that I was more in the groove and don't require as much heavy editing. I've just finished Part 5 and have only Parts 6 and 7 remaining.
I already have plans on what to cut from these sections, though Parts 2 and 5 (both of Ciara's parts) are making stern arguments towards leaving most of the stuff in. And they are the longest parts. Gosh dang it.
I'd consider this a "pre-alpha" read for those who want a copy. Basically you'll go in knowing its a rough draft, but help me to figure out exactly what plot things should be axed, or which parts of the book seemed to have problems with pacing. It also is a general assessment of the plot to see if it works. Last thing I want is to have a finished book with a plot that just falls into oblivion.
In other news...that's it. I haven't started up Gears yet, mostly because I'm lazy and I want to finish EC edits first. If you want to be in the "crappy, rough draft" reader group, feel free and let me know. Just know it's a massive thing and I'd need feedback relatively soonish (like a month or two). It would be mostly general feedback, however, so you wouldn't need to line edit or anything.
That's it. Back to work! Here's more Nier music because you want it.
I already have plans on what to cut from these sections, though Parts 2 and 5 (both of Ciara's parts) are making stern arguments towards leaving most of the stuff in. And they are the longest parts. Gosh dang it.
I'd consider this a "pre-alpha" read for those who want a copy. Basically you'll go in knowing its a rough draft, but help me to figure out exactly what plot things should be axed, or which parts of the book seemed to have problems with pacing. It also is a general assessment of the plot to see if it works. Last thing I want is to have a finished book with a plot that just falls into oblivion.
In other news...that's it. I haven't started up Gears yet, mostly because I'm lazy and I want to finish EC edits first. If you want to be in the "crappy, rough draft" reader group, feel free and let me know. Just know it's a massive thing and I'd need feedback relatively soonish (like a month or two). It would be mostly general feedback, however, so you wouldn't need to line edit or anything.
That's it. Back to work! Here's more Nier music because you want it.
Effulgent Corruption: Afterglow/warmdown
on Sunday, July 24, 2011
I'm doing a final rough draft edit of Effulgent Corruption. Not enough for me to merit calling it a whole new draft, but mostly just cleaning up discovery writing crap that made it over and spell-checking/sentence fixing. I've already found stuff I want changed/cut before the next edit (there's going to be a substantial amount cut, which will hurt but is necessary), but I'm not doing it until I do the actual edit, which will probably be in September.
My goal is to finish this edit by the end of the week. I just finished part 3 of 7, which for word count is actually more than half way through. So I'm glad this will soon be over, I can set the book down knowing it's something I'd be willing to show somebody (even though I'd prefer if they waited for the next draft), and then move on to something new. Gears, aka the book I don't care if it is terrible.
I am not a huge editing fan, as you all probably know already, but my hatred of editing is only half true. I actually don't mind editing if somebody (either writing group or an editor) gives me a general direction of where to go. I'm not the best self-editor when it comes to my work, mostly because I don't like cutting things I think are clever or entertaining. But when somebody straight up says, "this is unimportant; axe it," it's a lot easier.
At any rate, what else have I been doing? I upgraded to OSX Lion on the Macbook and the Mac Mini. I like it a lot on the Macbook because it has a touchpad, which the OS seems to be designed for. Not as big a fan on the Mini, but I'm sure I'll get used to it.
Other news is I have an NES! I'll dedicate a post to that once I get around to it. I have a lot of games and I'm really enjoying digging up old favorite and playing 'em.
I have to start writing again. Editing is good, but I'm already feeling like my days are missing something because I'm not writing. Maybe I'll start Gears tomorrow (or continue what I started way back last year) just to make myself feel better. Get a head start (I'm going to try and write that whole book before the end of August).
My goal is to finish this edit by the end of the week. I just finished part 3 of 7, which for word count is actually more than half way through. So I'm glad this will soon be over, I can set the book down knowing it's something I'd be willing to show somebody (even though I'd prefer if they waited for the next draft), and then move on to something new. Gears, aka the book I don't care if it is terrible.
I am not a huge editing fan, as you all probably know already, but my hatred of editing is only half true. I actually don't mind editing if somebody (either writing group or an editor) gives me a general direction of where to go. I'm not the best self-editor when it comes to my work, mostly because I don't like cutting things I think are clever or entertaining. But when somebody straight up says, "this is unimportant; axe it," it's a lot easier.
At any rate, what else have I been doing? I upgraded to OSX Lion on the Macbook and the Mac Mini. I like it a lot on the Macbook because it has a touchpad, which the OS seems to be designed for. Not as big a fan on the Mini, but I'm sure I'll get used to it.
Other news is I have an NES! I'll dedicate a post to that once I get around to it. I have a lot of games and I'm really enjoying digging up old favorite and playing 'em.
I have to start writing again. Editing is good, but I'm already feeling like my days are missing something because I'm not writing. Maybe I'll start Gears tomorrow (or continue what I started way back last year) just to make myself feel better. Get a head start (I'm going to try and write that whole book before the end of August).
Effulgent Corruption: It is finished
on Tuesday, July 19, 2011
At long (very long) last, I am pleased to say Effulgent Corruption is...FINISHED!
YES!
FINALLY!
WEE!
And now, some facts!
Total Words: 353,435
Days spent writing: 200 exactly (crazy)
Average words a day: 1767 (note I don't write Sundays and I didn't take this into account when getting the average)
Words written today: 7.8k
Word count broken into parts:
Part # Word Count Viewpoint
Prologue 478 Thomas Divinious
Part 1 61035 Drake
Part 2 67920 Ciara
Part 3 65777 Rook
Part 4 37312 Drake
Part 5 66649 Ciara
Part 6 24385 Rook
Part 7 29290 All Three
Epilogue 500 Ciara
Most words devoted to them: Ciara
Who I think is the actual star of the book: Ciara
Number of times I stopped because I had to brace myself for what I was about to do: 5 (three of them tonight)
Times I considered quitting: Too many to count
Favorite Part: Either Part 2 or Part 3
Least Favorite Part: Part 5 maybe? I don't hate any of them, but Part 1 needs the most work and Part 5 was by far the hardest to write.
Favorite character to write: Rook
The Character I Personally Detest the Most: Edmund
My favorite character in the book: Zahed
Amount I want to cut: 90-100k
How I'm going to do that: No idea.
Key points I need to change: I made errors on languages between the nations, introduced a character that went nowhere (going to cut her completely), and made some errors in Grax's dialogue that doesn't fit with the current vision for the story.
Gods that are actually dead: All six of 'em.
Wait what?: Yes, they are really dead. Hush up and read the story.
Time I considered rewriting the ending to make it less depressing: At least five, and just about every sentence as I was writing it.
Did I actually change it?: No. But it's still possible.
Number of cities (out of Six) the characters visit: 4
Number you actually see the inside of: 3
Ones we missed: Diasaria and Reneta (they'll be in book 2)
Original title for Book 2: The Dead Six
Why I won't do that: Because Larry Corria just released a book called "Dead Six," completely ruining my life.
Is it longer than Way of Kings or Wise Man's Fear?: Nope (but only by a hair)
Could you add enough to make it that long: You bet. I can think of tons of scenes that didn't make it to the end, either because of time or because I didn't want the book to be longer than it already was.
Wordle!
That's it, then. The book is finished. Done. At long last, it is complete.
Is it my best book to date? I don't know, I sure hope so. I certainly think it is, but it's my own crap so I'm going to be biased. I do know it is by far the most complex, but I think I managed to have everything tie together well. Unfortunately, in order to do that the ending had to be depressing, but I tried to ease the pain and the later books won't be as bad. Honestly, this is probably the darkest one.
What did I learn from this, you might ask?
First, I'm not doing this again unless it's pre-sold to a publisher. This is too big and too long and way too much time. The only reason I didn't quit was because I broke it into parts which made it manageable. Had I not done that I would have abandoned it ages ago.
Second, I really enjoy plotting and writing books like this, but my next step is to learn how to keep it shorter. Maybe Effulgent Corruption wouldn't have worked shorter, I honestly don't know. But as it is nobody will ever buy this thing unless I trim it down substantially. I'd like my books to have a depth like this one, but I've got to keep the word count down.
Third, that I can actually write books like this. This is the good part of writing a massive book: I actually pulled it off. My longest book before this was WGMD, which took five months and was 180k. This is almost twice as long (it's only 7k short) and took six and a half months, so technically it was faster. The point is: I plotted a book I honestly didn't think I had the skill to write, or the patience to go through with it. It is now finished. I am taking that as a massive personal accomplishment. This has been the hardest book to write since the first one (Lacrymosa, which took three years of writing and I had been plotting the thing since I was 16) but it's good. If I only wrote easy books like Steelgods there wouldn't be much of a challenge there.
Last, that I write slower without self-imposed deadlines, and I also write epic fantasy a lot slower than YA. Maybe it's the genre, I dunno. I was churning out about 5-6k a day for the last two-three months, but at first I was fluctuating heavily. When I write YA I can usually put out 70-90k a month (which is the whole book), whereas for this it was more like 50k a month. Not awful, but I really want to try and get to a point where I can easily churn out 100k in a month if needed.
What else? I have my first volunteer reader (James, who also just mailed me an NES) lined up. He's going to binge read it saturday (he's also my biggest fan, ha ha) so my goal is to do a very fast spelling/sentence edit before then. After that I'm setting this down and taking a break. I don't know if I can take a break after being in the habit, so if it seems like I'm having issue I'll do a light 1-2k a day on Gears of Anbar (Steelgods 2) to cooldown before Worldcon. Then we'll see what happens from there.
Thanks for all the support, especially writing group for pushing me through this. I couldn't have done it without all of you guys. Now I need you to alpha read this monster. :P
Novel #6 is finished! On to the next!
YES!
FINALLY!
WEE!
And now, some facts!
Total Words: 353,435
Days spent writing: 200 exactly (crazy)
Average words a day: 1767 (note I don't write Sundays and I didn't take this into account when getting the average)
Words written today: 7.8k
Word count broken into parts:
Part # Word Count Viewpoint
Prologue 478 Thomas Divinious
Part 1 61035 Drake
Part 2 67920 Ciara
Part 3 65777 Rook
Part 4 37312 Drake
Part 5 66649 Ciara
Part 6 24385 Rook
Part 7 29290 All Three
Epilogue 500 Ciara
Most words devoted to them: Ciara
Who I think is the actual star of the book: Ciara
Number of times I stopped because I had to brace myself for what I was about to do: 5 (three of them tonight)
Times I considered quitting: Too many to count
Favorite Part: Either Part 2 or Part 3
Least Favorite Part: Part 5 maybe? I don't hate any of them, but Part 1 needs the most work and Part 5 was by far the hardest to write.
Favorite character to write: Rook
The Character I Personally Detest the Most: Edmund
My favorite character in the book: Zahed
Amount I want to cut: 90-100k
How I'm going to do that: No idea.
Key points I need to change: I made errors on languages between the nations, introduced a character that went nowhere (going to cut her completely), and made some errors in Grax's dialogue that doesn't fit with the current vision for the story.
Gods that are actually dead: All six of 'em.
Wait what?: Yes, they are really dead. Hush up and read the story.
Time I considered rewriting the ending to make it less depressing: At least five, and just about every sentence as I was writing it.
Did I actually change it?: No. But it's still possible.
Number of cities (out of Six) the characters visit: 4
Number you actually see the inside of: 3
Ones we missed: Diasaria and Reneta (they'll be in book 2)
Original title for Book 2: The Dead Six
Why I won't do that: Because Larry Corria just released a book called "Dead Six," completely ruining my life.
Is it longer than Way of Kings or Wise Man's Fear?: Nope (but only by a hair)
Could you add enough to make it that long: You bet. I can think of tons of scenes that didn't make it to the end, either because of time or because I didn't want the book to be longer than it already was.
That's it, then. The book is finished. Done. At long last, it is complete.
Is it my best book to date? I don't know, I sure hope so. I certainly think it is, but it's my own crap so I'm going to be biased. I do know it is by far the most complex, but I think I managed to have everything tie together well. Unfortunately, in order to do that the ending had to be depressing, but I tried to ease the pain and the later books won't be as bad. Honestly, this is probably the darkest one.
What did I learn from this, you might ask?
First, I'm not doing this again unless it's pre-sold to a publisher. This is too big and too long and way too much time. The only reason I didn't quit was because I broke it into parts which made it manageable. Had I not done that I would have abandoned it ages ago.
Second, I really enjoy plotting and writing books like this, but my next step is to learn how to keep it shorter. Maybe Effulgent Corruption wouldn't have worked shorter, I honestly don't know. But as it is nobody will ever buy this thing unless I trim it down substantially. I'd like my books to have a depth like this one, but I've got to keep the word count down.
Third, that I can actually write books like this. This is the good part of writing a massive book: I actually pulled it off. My longest book before this was WGMD, which took five months and was 180k. This is almost twice as long (it's only 7k short) and took six and a half months, so technically it was faster. The point is: I plotted a book I honestly didn't think I had the skill to write, or the patience to go through with it. It is now finished. I am taking that as a massive personal accomplishment. This has been the hardest book to write since the first one (Lacrymosa, which took three years of writing and I had been plotting the thing since I was 16) but it's good. If I only wrote easy books like Steelgods there wouldn't be much of a challenge there.
Last, that I write slower without self-imposed deadlines, and I also write epic fantasy a lot slower than YA. Maybe it's the genre, I dunno. I was churning out about 5-6k a day for the last two-three months, but at first I was fluctuating heavily. When I write YA I can usually put out 70-90k a month (which is the whole book), whereas for this it was more like 50k a month. Not awful, but I really want to try and get to a point where I can easily churn out 100k in a month if needed.
What else? I have my first volunteer reader (James, who also just mailed me an NES) lined up. He's going to binge read it saturday (he's also my biggest fan, ha ha) so my goal is to do a very fast spelling/sentence edit before then. After that I'm setting this down and taking a break. I don't know if I can take a break after being in the habit, so if it seems like I'm having issue I'll do a light 1-2k a day on Gears of Anbar (Steelgods 2) to cooldown before Worldcon. Then we'll see what happens from there.
Thanks for all the support, especially writing group for pushing me through this. I couldn't have done it without all of you guys. Now I need you to alpha read this monster. :P
Novel #6 is finished! On to the next!
Effulgent Corruption: Finish him!
on Saturday, July 16, 2011
Unlike my characters, this book just won't seem to die.
Granted, I have a schedule lined up (or rather a basic outline). Out of the 9 chapters in the finale, 5 are now finished, meaning I'm over half-way done with Part 7. Yay!
This is actually oddly stressful. I'm not writing much more than usual, but I feel compelled to finish a chapter every day. I'm so ready for this book to be done it's maddening, yet I'm also anxious because I don't want to eff it up royally. You know what I'm saying: after a huge project, it all comes down to the end, and if you screw that up you feel like you've ruined all the previous work. Luckily, I'm an author, so if I do churn out a chapter that's nothing but utter garbage, I can totally rewrite it at some future date. But I hate rewriting and I want this to work, so there you go.
I also realized writing group is never, ever going to make it through this book before 2012 if I post at the same pace I currently am, which is actually a pretty grueling pace. I might just have to call for straight up alpha readers after I do my first massive edit.
This post is actually an excuse to post a massive part from what I wrote yesterday, because I thought it was funny and it made me grin re-reading it at work today. Yes, I worked on Saturday, and yes it sucked. But now I'm rich, so that's how life works.
Granted, I have a schedule lined up (or rather a basic outline). Out of the 9 chapters in the finale, 5 are now finished, meaning I'm over half-way done with Part 7. Yay!
This is actually oddly stressful. I'm not writing much more than usual, but I feel compelled to finish a chapter every day. I'm so ready for this book to be done it's maddening, yet I'm also anxious because I don't want to eff it up royally. You know what I'm saying: after a huge project, it all comes down to the end, and if you screw that up you feel like you've ruined all the previous work. Luckily, I'm an author, so if I do churn out a chapter that's nothing but utter garbage, I can totally rewrite it at some future date. But I hate rewriting and I want this to work, so there you go.
I also realized writing group is never, ever going to make it through this book before 2012 if I post at the same pace I currently am, which is actually a pretty grueling pace. I might just have to call for straight up alpha readers after I do my first massive edit.
This post is actually an excuse to post a massive part from what I wrote yesterday, because I thought it was funny and it made me grin re-reading it at work today. Yes, I worked on Saturday, and yes it sucked. But now I'm rich, so that's how life works.
Ciara laughed. “That’s fine with me. Try to not burn the pie, Kika.”
Kika smiled, closing her hands around the glass. “I’m going to make it out of apples! Do you like apples, Thomas?”
“Why are you asking me?” Thomas chuckled. Kika blushed and turned away.
“No…reason. I was just wondering…”
Ciara realized what was going on, and she had to try hard to keep from bursting into laughter. “Thomas loves apple pie, Kika, as do I. I think that’s an excellent choice.”
Kika perked up instantly, and gave Ciara a nod. “I’d better go get started then, if it’s to be done before you get back! Bye! Be safe!”
She gave a wave and scurried back into the kitchen, still gingerly carrying the *spoiler*. Thomas watched her go in confusion, then looked back at Ciara.
“What was eating away at her?”
Ciara rolled her eyes. “Men.”
“What?”
“Isn’t it obvious? She has something for you!”
“Wait, Kika? Are you being serious?” Thomas looked back towards the doorway where the Marked girl had disappeared.
“Gods, for being so smart you can be so very dense,” Ciara pressed her hand against Thomas’ cheek, pushing his face back towards her. She gave him a light kiss, then finished fastening her robe.
“But…I’m your husband. She knows that…right?”
“Certainly.”
“And I’ve hardly even met her, it doesn’t seem-“
“I’m not saying anything will come of it, I’m just saying she has a crush.” Ciara pulled the hood over her head, tucking her hair back into its shadows. “Weren’t you young once? Didn’t you have eyes for pretty Kian daughters?”
“I only had them for you.” Thomas smiled, reaching down and holding her hand. Ciara squeezed it tighter than usual, just enough to hurt.
“Me and at least three others; don’t try and change the past to your liking. I caught you kissing plenty of young ladies before you decided you liked me after all.”
Effulgent Corruption: Shades of Gray
on Thursday, July 14, 2011
Current count: Chapter 2 of 8 in the final part is complete. Six chapters left. If I keep the trend of writing one a day (about 5-6k) I'll be done next Wednesday. Though I'm guessing I'll blitz the final three in one day, which will probably be Saturday or Sunday.
Had a weekend hike/campout planned for Friday-Saturday, but it got cancelled. Oh well, more writing I guess.
This book is finally almost finished. I still can't believe it.
And now, Shades of Gray.
Moral ambiguity has also always been a key focus of my writing. The world around us is hardly black and white (unless you enjoy watching Fox News) but a staple of fantasy seems to be making it as such. Nobody argues that the Orcs in Lord of the Rings are just misunderstood, or that the Elves might actually just be huge jerkwads and are basically running away at the first sign of conflict. Nobody argues that the White Witch in Narnia might actually have some good qualities, and Aslan might have considerable flaws (probably because he's an analogy for Jesus, but that isn't the point).
My first novel, Lacrymosa, threw a girl in a middle of a conflict between two races. Raised by one but actually belonging to the other, she sparked off a war between them and was forced to pick sides. The goal with the story was that the reader would have difficulty choosing which faction they wanted to win: by presenting both with considerable good and bad qualities, it provided a moral conflict for the main character and (hopefully) the reader.
It would have worked if I was a better author, but everybody actually picked the same side (the Ala) so I guess that means I failed.
I'm also going on a tangent for what I was going to actually talk about, so now I'm going to try and pull this back together.
I'm completely convinced nobody is perfect. Everybody has their collection of vices, their "favorite sins" if you will. In most fantasy novels we are willing to glaze over these character flaws because the rest of the character is so overwhelmingly good. His motives are noble, so who cares if he was a mass murderer at some point? He's clearly good now, so it is easy to forgive that moral ambiguity for the sake of plot. Authors rely on this, throwing snippets of character flaw to make their character seem more rounded, then swiftly abandoning them should those flaws actually negatively effect the main story.
Basically quirks for the sake of having quirks, not for actually integrating those quirks into the story. "My character has a quirk!" *checks off a box* "Now I can get on with the actual plot!"
As you can guess, this drives me crazy. While I'll admit most of us in the real world have weird eccentricities that only play a minor roll in our "life's story," I'm reading a book here. If my character has a knack for killing people without hesitation, why does he hesitate when confronted with a main character (besides the fact that it's, you know, the hero he's about to slaughter)? Why do we make unrealistic changes to how a character acts just because the person he's interacting with has a name (vs the nameless other characters)? If you give your character a flaw, you'd damn well follow through with it, and not some cheap, half-assed way that doesn't follow a character's past. Give them a trait or flaw, and make it relevant.
I'm off target again. Sorry, this is like being shotgunned by my brain's ideas.
The point is, one of my main goals in Effulgent Corruption (besides it being dark) was to make it realistic. All three viewpoint characters of EC have distinctly different goals. In their own minds (and in the mind of the reader, if I sold it right) everything they do makes sense. Drake's goals are logical. Ciara's goals are noble. The means by which Rook's goals are accomplished might be questionable, but his intentions make perfect sense.
The fun part is everybody's goals completely conflict.
I'll have to have Alpha/Beta readers tell me if it works, but the basic goal is that everybody's intentions make perfect sense when thought of separately, but when mashed together you realize that they are incompatible. Whose side do you take? Now that the end has come, who should win? Are any of these characters actually good, or do their flaws outrank their good points?
It's interesting what you can do with viewpoint in this case. A reader is naturally more sympathetic to a viewpoint character. If you can present their monstrous actions in a sympathetic way (think of any of the John Clever books by Dan Wells), you can trick the reader into liking a character and agreeing when them when they'd completely abhor them if they saw them from the eyes of someone else. I (attempted) to use this tactic when writing Rook. From an outside view, he's a complete animal, with no hope for redemption and the world would probably be better off if he were dead. But when you see things through his eyes, everything changes. The awful things he does actually sort of make sense. His greater goal is one that isn't just noble, it's necessary for the world to survive. But can you still really side with him? What when the only way for him to succeed will probably result in the murder of the the other viewpoint characters?
All this is in theory, however, assuming I actually pulled it off in writing. Which is also the reason I was so daunted by the task of writing Effulgent Corruption - I didn't know if I could pull it all off in the way I wanted. Again, Alpha/Beta readers.
My point is: I like gray. I like it in my novels. I like flawed protagonists that are flawed for a reason, and those flaws actually incorporate in interesting ways in the story itself. I like pulling the rug out from under readers (again, see Nier). I like reading books that do that, but brainstorming them is just as fun.
Now I just can't do it so much it's cliche. But that's an issue for a later time.
I'd throw an EC quote down here, but I literally can't find a single paragraph in this last part that isn't a spoiler. So instead I'm going to turn to a random point in the book and find the most interesting paragraph that isn't a spoiler. I can't see how this could possibly go wrong.
(From Part 3, Rook's first part)
- Effulgent Corruption, Saints
Had a weekend hike/campout planned for Friday-Saturday, but it got cancelled. Oh well, more writing I guess.
This book is finally almost finished. I still can't believe it.
And now, Shades of Gray.
Moral ambiguity has also always been a key focus of my writing. The world around us is hardly black and white (unless you enjoy watching Fox News) but a staple of fantasy seems to be making it as such. Nobody argues that the Orcs in Lord of the Rings are just misunderstood, or that the Elves might actually just be huge jerkwads and are basically running away at the first sign of conflict. Nobody argues that the White Witch in Narnia might actually have some good qualities, and Aslan might have considerable flaws (probably because he's an analogy for Jesus, but that isn't the point).
My first novel, Lacrymosa, threw a girl in a middle of a conflict between two races. Raised by one but actually belonging to the other, she sparked off a war between them and was forced to pick sides. The goal with the story was that the reader would have difficulty choosing which faction they wanted to win: by presenting both with considerable good and bad qualities, it provided a moral conflict for the main character and (hopefully) the reader.
It would have worked if I was a better author, but everybody actually picked the same side (the Ala) so I guess that means I failed.
I'm also going on a tangent for what I was going to actually talk about, so now I'm going to try and pull this back together.
I'm completely convinced nobody is perfect. Everybody has their collection of vices, their "favorite sins" if you will. In most fantasy novels we are willing to glaze over these character flaws because the rest of the character is so overwhelmingly good. His motives are noble, so who cares if he was a mass murderer at some point? He's clearly good now, so it is easy to forgive that moral ambiguity for the sake of plot. Authors rely on this, throwing snippets of character flaw to make their character seem more rounded, then swiftly abandoning them should those flaws actually negatively effect the main story.
Basically quirks for the sake of having quirks, not for actually integrating those quirks into the story. "My character has a quirk!" *checks off a box* "Now I can get on with the actual plot!"
As you can guess, this drives me crazy. While I'll admit most of us in the real world have weird eccentricities that only play a minor roll in our "life's story," I'm reading a book here. If my character has a knack for killing people without hesitation, why does he hesitate when confronted with a main character (besides the fact that it's, you know, the hero he's about to slaughter)? Why do we make unrealistic changes to how a character acts just because the person he's interacting with has a name (vs the nameless other characters)? If you give your character a flaw, you'd damn well follow through with it, and not some cheap, half-assed way that doesn't follow a character's past. Give them a trait or flaw, and make it relevant.
I'm off target again. Sorry, this is like being shotgunned by my brain's ideas.
The point is, one of my main goals in Effulgent Corruption (besides it being dark) was to make it realistic. All three viewpoint characters of EC have distinctly different goals. In their own minds (and in the mind of the reader, if I sold it right) everything they do makes sense. Drake's goals are logical. Ciara's goals are noble. The means by which Rook's goals are accomplished might be questionable, but his intentions make perfect sense.
The fun part is everybody's goals completely conflict.
I'll have to have Alpha/Beta readers tell me if it works, but the basic goal is that everybody's intentions make perfect sense when thought of separately, but when mashed together you realize that they are incompatible. Whose side do you take? Now that the end has come, who should win? Are any of these characters actually good, or do their flaws outrank their good points?
It's interesting what you can do with viewpoint in this case. A reader is naturally more sympathetic to a viewpoint character. If you can present their monstrous actions in a sympathetic way (think of any of the John Clever books by Dan Wells), you can trick the reader into liking a character and agreeing when them when they'd completely abhor them if they saw them from the eyes of someone else. I (attempted) to use this tactic when writing Rook. From an outside view, he's a complete animal, with no hope for redemption and the world would probably be better off if he were dead. But when you see things through his eyes, everything changes. The awful things he does actually sort of make sense. His greater goal is one that isn't just noble, it's necessary for the world to survive. But can you still really side with him? What when the only way for him to succeed will probably result in the murder of the the other viewpoint characters?
All this is in theory, however, assuming I actually pulled it off in writing. Which is also the reason I was so daunted by the task of writing Effulgent Corruption - I didn't know if I could pull it all off in the way I wanted. Again, Alpha/Beta readers.
My point is: I like gray. I like it in my novels. I like flawed protagonists that are flawed for a reason, and those flaws actually incorporate in interesting ways in the story itself. I like pulling the rug out from under readers (again, see Nier). I like reading books that do that, but brainstorming them is just as fun.
Now I just can't do it so much it's cliche. But that's an issue for a later time.
I'd throw an EC quote down here, but I literally can't find a single paragraph in this last part that isn't a spoiler. So instead I'm going to turn to a random point in the book and find the most interesting paragraph that isn't a spoiler. I can't see how this could possibly go wrong.
(From Part 3, Rook's first part)
Then the cart passed, making way for a cacophonous clinking sound. Behind the wagon, like threads of rope dragged behind, were three lines of chained Marked. Each line in turn had three Marked attached, the slaves marching to keep up with the plodding cart, manacles clasped tightly around one wrist. They kept their eyes low, not struggling or fighting, simply pressing forward as the sweat dripped from their faces. Their corruption lines were long, one man’s reaching all the way past his shoulders and beginning to encroach on the flesh of hisneck.
“Passive,” Grax’s voice was gleeful. “Covered; they hear one of Us now. They don’t remember what it was like to be men, what happened in their First Life. All they know is slavery, servants to their masters. Just like you, Rook. Just the way I like you.”- Effulgent Corruption, Saints
Effulgent Corruption: The Home Stretch, emotional impact, death of charcters
on Tuesday, July 12, 2011
I've wanted to use the phrase "on the home stretch" for a while now with Effulgent Corruption, but could never justify it considering I'd always have more than one Part remaining.
Well, I'm on the home stretch. I have one Part left. It's outlined. I just have to write it.
I'm on the home stretch.
After outlining what will become Part 7, I realized how much I didn't want to write this finale. It has nothing to do with being unable, hating the story, or anything of that kind. The point is that things happen in the end that are irreversible, and after getting to know these characters over seven months (more, if you count plotting and the first false start) I am a bit hesitant to follow through. Who lives and dies (or is horribly maimed) at the end of Effulgent Corruption was decided WAY back during the book's initial planning (even before it had a title), but now that I'm finally up to that point it's hard to follow through with it.
I had a similar problem with the ending of Lacrymosa (even though that book wasn't nearly as well polished, it did take me a three year period to write), the ending of Harbinger, and the ending of the second part of Where Gods and Mortals Dance.
Without going into too many spoilers: all the parts mentioned above have the deaths of main characters. I've always been forward in saying that nobody is ever safe, even viewpoint characters; it's been something I've been adamant on since I first started writing. I despise immortal viewpoint characters who seem to have immaculate luck and narrowly avoid death by just a hair every scene. Death is a staple of fantasy, so why are main/likeable characters exempt?
Because it's hard, that's why.
Part 6 also ends with a main character dying. For risk of spoilers, let's just say it is "one of my favorite characters in the novel." I literally had to emotionally detach myself from the scene entirely in order to write it. I went back for a quick re-read edit and actually skipped the part leading up to the death. I just couldn't re-read it, at least not then. I was so attached to the character and liked him/her so much that killing them was like a punch in the chest. I still haven't re-read the scene. And this was for a character I'd planned to die since the beginning!
As an author, we want deaths to have emotional weight. So we build up a character, make them endearing to a reader, force them to be very sympathetic, and then kill them.
The only problem is, as the author, I'm infinitely more intimate with a character than a reader. They've spent maybe a few hours with him/her, while I've spent months (sometimes years) entertaining them in my thoughts. Doing awful things to characters is my forte (which is also what discovery writers excel at), but even I have a threshold that can be crossed. George R. R. Martin can do awful things to people without batting an eyelid, but I think most of us are more like J.K. Rowling, who cried during several stages of writing the Harry Potter novels. It's hard to be mean, especially to people who are good and don't deserve it. There isn't always a happy ending, but there's a difference between being told about the unhappy ending and having to create it.
In truth, this whole post was sort of an extension of a comment I posted on Rose's blog, but the point still stands. I'm having troubles starting this "beginning of the end" because I know I'm going to have to do awful, unfixable things to my characters, and I feel bad about it.
But it was going to happen anyway, so I'm going to write today regardless.
I was also going to post about moral grayness in characters (and melodrama), but that'll have to wait for a future blog post because my brain is addled with Mountain Dew and work isn't helping with my mind mushiness. So just know that the end is coming, this book will finally be finished, and I'm going to kill every character you ever loved or do awful things to them (or both). So ha ha.
Also, a new tradition is to post a picture or youtube video relevant to something, so here's the final boss music from Nier. I posted it before, but it changes just before you deal the killing blow, which I think is a great example of emotionally attacking a player/reader before a character death.
And why not, here's the original song in case you forgot.
Well, I'm on the home stretch. I have one Part left. It's outlined. I just have to write it.
I'm on the home stretch.
After outlining what will become Part 7, I realized how much I didn't want to write this finale. It has nothing to do with being unable, hating the story, or anything of that kind. The point is that things happen in the end that are irreversible, and after getting to know these characters over seven months (more, if you count plotting and the first false start) I am a bit hesitant to follow through. Who lives and dies (or is horribly maimed) at the end of Effulgent Corruption was decided WAY back during the book's initial planning (even before it had a title), but now that I'm finally up to that point it's hard to follow through with it.
I had a similar problem with the ending of Lacrymosa (even though that book wasn't nearly as well polished, it did take me a three year period to write), the ending of Harbinger, and the ending of the second part of Where Gods and Mortals Dance.
Without going into too many spoilers: all the parts mentioned above have the deaths of main characters. I've always been forward in saying that nobody is ever safe, even viewpoint characters; it's been something I've been adamant on since I first started writing. I despise immortal viewpoint characters who seem to have immaculate luck and narrowly avoid death by just a hair every scene. Death is a staple of fantasy, so why are main/likeable characters exempt?
Because it's hard, that's why.
Part 6 also ends with a main character dying. For risk of spoilers, let's just say it is "one of my favorite characters in the novel." I literally had to emotionally detach myself from the scene entirely in order to write it. I went back for a quick re-read edit and actually skipped the part leading up to the death. I just couldn't re-read it, at least not then. I was so attached to the character and liked him/her so much that killing them was like a punch in the chest. I still haven't re-read the scene. And this was for a character I'd planned to die since the beginning!
As an author, we want deaths to have emotional weight. So we build up a character, make them endearing to a reader, force them to be very sympathetic, and then kill them.
The only problem is, as the author, I'm infinitely more intimate with a character than a reader. They've spent maybe a few hours with him/her, while I've spent months (sometimes years) entertaining them in my thoughts. Doing awful things to characters is my forte (which is also what discovery writers excel at), but even I have a threshold that can be crossed. George R. R. Martin can do awful things to people without batting an eyelid, but I think most of us are more like J.K. Rowling, who cried during several stages of writing the Harry Potter novels. It's hard to be mean, especially to people who are good and don't deserve it. There isn't always a happy ending, but there's a difference between being told about the unhappy ending and having to create it.
In truth, this whole post was sort of an extension of a comment I posted on Rose's blog, but the point still stands. I'm having troubles starting this "beginning of the end" because I know I'm going to have to do awful, unfixable things to my characters, and I feel bad about it.
But it was going to happen anyway, so I'm going to write today regardless.
I was also going to post about moral grayness in characters (and melodrama), but that'll have to wait for a future blog post because my brain is addled with Mountain Dew and work isn't helping with my mind mushiness. So just know that the end is coming, this book will finally be finished, and I'm going to kill every character you ever loved or do awful things to them (or both). So ha ha.
Also, a new tradition is to post a picture or youtube video relevant to something, so here's the final boss music from Nier. I posted it before, but it changes just before you deal the killing blow, which I think is a great example of emotionally attacking a player/reader before a character death.
And why not, here's the original song in case you forgot.
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